Losing My Sanity and Finding Apathy

I’ve become apathetic as I get older. Things don’t get me riled up the same way that they used to. I was very codependent and spent a lot of time trying to fix things and people, but after my mother passed away, I focused on fixing myself.

This focus on the self has led me to a crossroads of sorts. To my left is the past and to my right is the near future. What lies ahead of me? I’m not sure about that. I aspire to take my career in strategic communications to the next level, but there are no guarantees there. I recently found myself wrapped up in the toxicity of my own mind based on a past life leading to self-sabotage and self-imposed inquisition.

I persecuted my own self by creating scenarios that may or may not have been real but were wholly based in reality. My past life isn’t a clean one, but it’s one worth noting and learning from — from attempts at sex work to successfully starting my own consultancy during and after graduate school.

I founded The Cultured Scholar Strategic Communications on my own persona — the cultured scholar. I continuously study and expand on my education. I am cultured in that I am familiar with various cultures through my studies in religion and spirituality, not to mention being raised on the arts and sciences. My experiences with myriad fraternal organizations have exposed me to people from all…